Ever since 3 weeks of work, I've been stressed to the maximum. Thinking about work day in and out, remembering abstract IT concepts and giving little time for my body to recuperate. I guess now my biological clock is screaming by breaking down asking me to break for rest. Tonight I didn't bring home any work, figured out I didn't want to anyway. I was right, just after my nap, I started sneezing and feeling faint. Just popped cough and flu medicine in my mouth. Guess I will fall asleep anytime. And no, I don't want anyone to talk to me or make any noises, cos this vibration is going to make me feel more terribly light-headed.

Don't really know what I write now makes sense, but I think it does, at least subconsciously. Good night.

Love......drags you down and rockets you up.

I'm glad our quarrel ended. I don't want another episode like that to happen ever again....

Bloody busy monday at work, loads of abstract things to learn, but I'm in a happy mood...

Confused. I don't know what to do with you.

Love. I love you more than I love myself as always.

Passion. I do things for your sake more than for mine own.

Trust. I doubted you, and then I entrusted you my heart.

When I love you more than I love myself, when I do things because I love you, you start running away because you think I am adding stress to you.

Why have human beings become so selfish that there should be no compromise anymore? I don't like people behaving selfishly, I don't want myself being selfish either. When is the time when selflessness becomes a living philosophy in the hearts of people? When is it that we start doing things (even little things) to make others around us happy, and in the process, we feel happy right from our hearts. I believe that to derive happiness by only considering ourselves only gives us a superficial sense of happiness that will not last. True happiness comes from giving and making the other happy, and the true gratitude of the other person comes around to comfort your heart. :-)

Great....I wrote 1 whole lot of philosophy about men and women and fu[c]ked up computer/connection played me out.

thanks for that!

All I was to say is that I'm condemn a patient in a relationship that has fallen chronically ill. Do you want to administer treatment with me or have you already condemn chances of survival and opted for euthanasia to kill everything that is/will be/was beautiful?

Great no more waiting....I'm going down to sign my contract with XYZ Sw[i]ss In[v]estment B[a]nk tomorrow and looking at a start date of next Tuesday, 2nd May, 2006!

Hurray....job hunt is finally over!

Bored.

Woke up super early.

Do nothing.

Waiting for my new company, XYZ Inv[e]stment Ba[n]k, one of the top notch S[w]iss Inv[e]stment B[a]nks to call me up to sign a contract with me. Yes, after 3 rounds of gruesome interview with the AVPs, VP and the director herself last week and this week, I finally managed to bag the job home as the Fi[n]ancial Sys[t]ems Co[n]trol An[a]lyst! The job itself sounded boring, but I don't know yet, but I'm more excited about what opportunities the company can offer; job rotation, internal mobility within S[i]ngapore and even overseas! Working with Fi[n]ancial S[y]stems and in the f[i]nance area....great.....I can finally break free from the evil cycle of being dumped to do hardcore a[c]counting and be called an An[a]lyst, fulfilling my all time dream. What to add....this is a permanent position with satisfying salary, shift work dealing with system issues on a global basis, international working environment, the director herself reminds me so much of my previous boss; blonde, blue eyes, a little plump, always smiley and with a streak of strictness in those eyes....

Waiting...

Distance is not the worst thing that a relationship can suffer from. It destroys the physical touch in a relationship. But don't expect that your bolster that you hug to sleep or the warm blanket that keeps you warm can suffice the substitution.

Bad communication is the worst thing that can happen in relationship whether you both are together or far apart. You can be looking each other in the eye but if you don't know what the other is thinking about, the relationship is doomed for failure. And when we are far apart, I trust him that even if he doesn't email or call me for 1 or a few days he still loves me; he trusts me and let me date other men but I don't feel like fooling around; and when he goes to another country for another project and has limited internet access and uncontactable by phone, he doesn't come online or sends me an email or calls me, and this is for 1 week or so already. I begin to feel frustrated, annoyed, unloved; I begin to doubt what is the priorities in his heart and if I ever were a priority, and if I am, why doesn't he even want to lift a finger to call me, send me a simple email? Are internet cafes that expensive or to get a phone that difficult in Ger[m]any and can't be done in the weekend? Even if it's that expensive, is money or me more important to him?

I am frightened to know the answer...

The 5 love languages

Your primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

The days of feeling totally f*cked up. It seems like I have a problem with actually trying to begin my "new" job with the big name financial institution, due to some f*cked up new policy of requirements to gain approval from n[e]w yo[r]k. Potential boss wants me to give him a call on mon[d]ay. Can't help but to feel totally for the worst. This is so f*cked up. Shit happens, shit sounds like it's going to happen again. I totally hate this, hate this, hate this!!!!!!! Why mon[d]ay??? I hate this weekend,hate this weekend, hate this weekend!!!!!!! It will be a very bad weekend for me :'(