Dearie, you are precious to me. When I finally saw your email this morning the minute I was about to take off to work, it gave me the shock of my life. I stood rooted to the spot, stunned, stupefied and jaw agapped; not believing what I saw you wrote me. I do believe that today, your email, was the worst gift I had ever received from you for it totally ruined my excitement that a newcomer to any new organisation should have. I do believe that the train ride this morning was the longest, work the most dreadful as I had been concealing my shock and my pain beyond the beautiful facade. For a few times, I had secret outbursts amongst the unfamiliar crowd. During lunch hour, I was so distracted and self-absorbed that I didn't realise that a car was just next to me - I had a close brush with an accident. Dearie, where is that man that I believe I fell in love with for this inner strength gone to? This is our first real obstable that we face and that we must overcome. Just because your past relationships don't work doesn't mean that I don't want to work this out with you. Nobody except ourselves can solve this, you and me cannot run away. Will you prove to be a man of strength or a p*ssy that runs away?